I abhorr writing bills. I hate adding up the reciepts. I hate working on the budget. I hate writing checks - I get this annoyed feeling that stretches through my torso like a stomach cramp. If I write too many checks in a row bile begins to rise in my throat. My handwriting is terrible anyway since my hand is constantly numb, and you can barely read my signature or the amount or any of it, and I don't care.
I hate paying bills so much that I absolutely refuse to write the amount paid on the slip included with the check, though I have been known to write: See the fucking check for the amount! out of absolute spite.
I can't even make myself care when the bills are late, or when we go over budget. I don't bother to get shocked when a bill is way high (for instance, our power/gas bill was almost 400 bucks this time. I know I should care, but I just don't.)
And don't tell me to set up auto withdrawels for everything, and that there are computer programs that will rectify it all for me because I can't stand the thought of spending even an hour setting that shit up. I hate math. I don't even like math when the computer does it for me.
I hate it hate it hate it hate it hate it HATE IT!!!!!
It goes so deep as to even include a basic hatred of money, from whence all this work comes. Doing the bills takes away every iota of joy from shopping. I hate to get a reciept when I shop because then that means I've got to tally it. Every reciept only means more work.
But, if I don't do the bills, PHF will, and then he frets and we argue.
I hate that worse.
Got to go pay bills now.